But I've screwed it up too many times and too badly…

We have too much fear, in the end, of God. Ultimately we look at the scrambled egg, at our own mistakes and sins, and believe that the loss of a certain grace is irrevocable, that a mistake hangs us. Basically we do not believe that there is a second chance, let alone seventy-times-seven chances, that can be just as lifegiving as the first.—Ronald Rolheiser, Forgotten among the Lilies: Learning to Love beyond the Fears, 144